Rant

Easier said than done. You don’t understand.

They say that you could do better, you deserve better, you don’t need them, etc..
But the thing is, people don’t understand how that one person makes you feel. Yes, from the outside perspective that one person is exactly what you don’t need. Although, from your perspective that person is exactly what you do need. You don’t think about the negativity that one person brings into your life. You only focus on how good that one person makes you feel, therefor you block out everything else. You succumb yourself in those words and gestures that make you feel like you are on top of the world, and that one person is the only one that can make you feel that way and you cannot see the greater picture or anyone else.

I’m still trying to understand this concept and I am still trying to break away from this curse. I see both the negative and the positive, but I am so blinded that I only see and hear what I want to because that’s what makes me happy. Why would anyone want to focus on something that would make them feel like shit? I guess it’s just selective hearing and seeing. 

I need someone to wake me up; but even then I don’t think it will work. 
As of right now, I’m in too deep.
I dug my own hole, and I’m the only one that could get me out. 

Feelings make you do some crazy shit. Forreals.